I hate winter so much. I think I might have Seasonal Affective Disorder. Or maybe I'm just depressed in general, idk. My self-esteem threw itself from a very high place last Friday night, and I haven't been able to coax it back up since then. Complexes and insecurities can get out immediately. I'm sure they are just feeding on exhaustion from school, lack of sunlight, and holiday time padre-related emotions, but damn.

blahblahblahihatemyselfblahblah. I'm tired of feeling like some pussy emo kid. TODAY IS GOING TO BE A GOOD DAY.

Thank god this year is almost over.

Que Sera sera: drained You make a nice cusion ^^: rambling, wah wah, ~*feelings*~

Last night all I could dream of was an extra week of school after finals during which attendance was required in order to pass any course. And I could not make it back to Norman no matter how hard I tried. D| DO NOT WANT.

Also, mild friends cut for your holiday season. Twenty-eight journals are gone, but I think 100% were either old journals that people don't use anymore or ones which have not been updated in about half a year or more. (Some of them had lain dormant since 2006.) Most likely, if you're active, you were kept, even if I don't comment much. ♥

THIS ENTRY IS POINTLESS. Now that my phone is charged, it's back out to find more last minute gifts. HUZZAH. RETURN TO YOUR LIVES, CITIZENS.

Que Sera sera: bouncy You make a nice cusion ^^: friends, school, the dreaming

There are no words for the sheer and utter epic win that is this video.

swordmonkey, you are amazing for providing me with a Code Geass-themed Yu Yu Hakusho opening sequence. It was awesome.

Que Sera sera: geeky

Oh, Vocaloid, why are you so fun? It's such a challenge to get Luka to say the correct lyrics, but when I manage it, I'm so happy.

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Que Sera sera: creative

♥ Madeleine Peyroux.

I am getting older, and it's weirding me out. Maybe being in all 1000 level courses this semester has been messing with me, but dang. It seems like even here on livejournal, I've become this old woman. I remember when I was younger than most of the people I encountered in communities. Now all I come across are teenagers. I miss being a teenager. ]:

I've been thinking about changing my style lately. I don't want to start wearing make-up or anything, but I'm tired of looking the way I do, and I don't just mean weight-wise. I feel like nothing about me is attention-grabbing aside from my hair. But who exactly do I want to be? I'm always a work in progress. Meh.

This past week has a lot of good moments (and a few...interesting ones). Last Friday meant a lot to me; Ashly's party was fun despite people being incredibly lame and missing out on laser bears saving the day against alien robot hookers; and Jake and I have been hanging out almost daily lately. He's a great friend, which makes me wonder why I thought he disliked me for so long. Hmmmm. I hope we'll hang out over the break, but either way I'm excited to get back to Tulsa. YAY HOME.

Now if only Friday would hurry up and get here. (But not until after Justin and I have some hang out timez tomorrow!)

kadgskljhasdgkjajgljg [insert continued bitching about studying here but homg text books are soooo boring] BACK TO WORK. JEEZ. All I have left is that damn history final, and, while I'm not having nightmares over it like I was the midterm, I do not feel prepared at alllllll. D|

O YEAH. Thanks for sending me little gifts, those of you who have! ♥

Que Sera sera: bored You make a nice cusion ^^: back in my day, friends, i am lazy, school

I. Hate. Studying.

Que Sera sera: blaaaaaaah You make a nice cusion ^^: blaaah, i am lazy

Aaaasdfdgfhghkjhlkjl;k'l;

I am tired of studying. >/

Say no to English literature, f-list.

Que Sera sera: blah music: "Adolescence" -- Kagamine Rin & Len